the other day while running some errands with the girls, i was shuffling through the ol' ipod when a song that reminded me of my high school days came up. instantly, i was reformed back to those teenage feelings. it's strange how music can do that. i have great high school memories... i didn't have a damaging or negative high school experience, i rather enjoyed those years and have plenty of fabulous and fun memories.
however, a feeling came over me... a wishing that i had embraced my carefree youth a little more. and the more i thought of it, the more i realized that there were many other years of my life that i wished i had embraced more. bryce and i often talk about how lame we were for not taking advantage of our pre-children years by going out more often, and traveling more. not that we regret our first few years of marriage or having kids, but that we didn't use our freedom to it's maximum when we had more of it. we also talk about how silly we were for not traveling with ava more when she was our only one... how easy (and cheaper) it is to take a trip with just one child?
the more i thought about it the more i realized my problem... i have trouble embracing the now. not that i don't enjoy my life, but i often look back and think that i could've enjoyed certain moments more fully.
so, i've decided i need to work on that and to commit myself to embrace the now to it's fullest. 'cause i'd hate to look back in 50 years and think that i didn't savor these wonderful youthful times of raising my family.
**i wrote this post yesterday, but didn't have time to upload pics so i saved it as a draft. this morning during conference, president monson spoke a little on enjoying life now with no regrets -- it was exactly what i've been needing to hear.... the church is true!**
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reading this entry, i thought of pres. monson's talk and hoped you heard it.
its so difficult to embrace now, especially if you're a planner and are focusing on making sure your future is right. yet another tricky balance issue... but you better get some traveling in while you can. traveling with 2 is loads easier than 3.
(love the embrace photo montage.)
i had this same experience not too long ago. i almost felt guilty for feeling that way, because i absolutely love my emmi but those carefree days sure were fun. cody and i always wonder what we did when we didn't have emmi, haha, i can't even remember anymore.
president monson's talk was exactly what i needed to hear too.
thank you for the pizza the other day... that was a bonus to see you guys too!!! we should do it more often.
p.s. love the old school jimmy shirt. ha.
I have a problem embracing the now too Diana. So much of what you said I can relate to. I'm working on it too.
I totally loved President Monsons talk as well. It is sooo great now, I can see that, almost too much. I am nervous to be the mother of two!
I totally feel the same way. I feel like we could have done so much more before having the kiddos. Oh and I love the pic of the girls.
As I was reading the beginning of your post that conference talk came to mind. Such a good talk! I think we all feel like that at times in our lives(I know I have!!), but good for you for recognizing it and wanting to change it!
ahhh, i love that my friends understand me and have also felt that same way... i have re-listened to pres. monson's talk already, it's reminding me to stay focused.
enjoy the journey while steadily becoming better, doing better no matter the road we're on. that's the real battle in life, right? enjoying where we're at now, but never being complacent enough to stop progressing.
The first two minutes of that talk, I was thinking "oh, so & so will really get comfort from this talk" and then I realized how much that talk was meant for ME(well all of us i'm sure, but you know what I mean).
I often times have looked back and wished I had enjoyed things more(for example, high school..i had a ton of fun, but was not living in the moment,I was too interested in getting out and about). I've now realized that it is not regret that I feel, but more that I am humbled everytime I remember something like that, humbled and reminded about how easy it is to take things for granted. So, I for one will be trying to keep Pres. Monson's talk in my mind until the next conference when he has another amazing lesson for me to learn.
I love the pics, I can't believe how the girls are growing. I also like that 1st pic of you & bryce, and of course the senior trip pic.....so many good times. I 'm grateful you have been a part of my good times & memories.
Lots of love to you & the family
lets get together soon.
Love the picture of Ava when she was a chubby baby it reminds so much of Sofia ...I miss those days with her! President Monsons talk realy open my eyes...it is a great blessing to have what we have now and we need to take more advantage of it... Love conference and everything that we can learn from it ..
What he was really saying was stop wasting so much time cleaning and spend more time with your kids! thats how i interpreted it at least....its always good to hear a prophet tell you not to sweat the small stuff- like cleaning. hate it, hate that i can do it one day and then its a disaster again the next.
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