the other night a beautiful storm came through our city, our room kept getting lit up with lightning flashes and our home shook as the thunder rumbled. i lay awake for a while, enjoying the beautiful sounds and before i knew it i drifted off... by early morning the rain, lightning and thunder continued on and i was awakened by an especially loud thunderclap. it was about 4am and i wondered when ava was going to be awakened by the loud thunder and come running into our room. only a little while later, another loud thunder cracked through the sky and shook our house and i heard ava's door swing open and her hurried footsteps to our room. she was scared and was looking for a safer place to sleep, so into our bed she climbed.
an hour later, bryce was off to work and ava and i were left alone, listening to the storm outside. we both lay there quiet, but awake, neither one of us able to sleep between each loud rumble of thunder. each time it thundered, ava would turn to me and tell me that she didn't like it, and each time i would comfort her and tell her it was loud but she was safe in our home. a few minutes later, out of nowhere, ava told me that she didn't want to be a mommy. "why?" i asked, "being a mommy is fun." she then replied, "i want to be a little girl." between the few seconds it took for me to reply, i thought of what she said, and the scared feelings she was having about the storm. i thought of how wonderful a feeling it is to be a little girl, safe beneath the covers, feeling protected from anything and everything by a mom and a dad. being able to indulge in the protection, and not have to worry about the actual protecting. that sweet and safe naivety. i so badly wanted to convey my thoughts to her, and to encourage her to embrace it all and that there was no hurry for her to have to grow up. but being only three, instead i told her, "ava, you don't have to be a mommy now, you get to be a little girl for a very long time." "a really long time?" she asked hopefully. "yes, honey," i replied, "don't worry, you have plenty of time."
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that made me cry.
you are a good mommy, no wonder she is in no hurry.
That was a precious Post Diana!! loved it!
that is the dang sweetest thing ever. that kind of got me choked up. don't you love it???
cute.
i think she may be the only kid not in a hurry to grow up. i always wish that i had appreciated the naivety when i had it, and i'm glad that ava is.
I love the picture! I feel that exact same way. No wonder Ava and I get along so well. She is a girl after my own heart. I can honestly remember having similar conversations with my mom and dad during Thunder & Lightening storms.I used to HATE them. Now I have outgrown it (for the most part:)because I love rain so much, I'll deal with the Thunder & lightening.
that was the sweetest thing ever! wow diana, you have such a gift for writing.
this post made me long to be back in my own mother's arms...where i always felt safe and warm.
ava and ems sure are lucky to have you :)
I love how you document the simple things in life. Comments, sayings, hairdoos, afternoon walks. All these little things add up to your wonderful life. Your family is a blessed family. I'm so glad I know you.
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