yes, i've had some wonderful times this year and the birth of my beautiful, healthy emaline was one of those, but honestly, for the most part, 2008 has turned out to be pretty terrible.
i won't/can't go into details here on the www, but the past few months i have felt tremendous weight on my shoulders that i have had a difficult time bearing. i feel as though pieces of my happy little life are getting chiseled away slowly by the world around. i have shed many tears for my friends, and my family over the past few months, i've stayed awake late at night worrying about them, praying for them and for me. i have sought out inspiration, words that may heal, that may help. i have prayed for strength to do what i need or should do and strength to endure. i have prayed for my children, that my weakness would not affect them and that i would have the ability to protect their happy innocent worlds from being the least bit shaken. it is at these times that i realize how vulnerable we are to the world around and i find myself relying on strength from above. i have endured many difficult trials in my life and i know that it is my father in heaven who has truly lifted, shielded and carried me through those times. and so i rely again. i find the comfort i need in Him. and i am thankful for the faith that i have that He is there... always.
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i am learning (constantly learning) that this is what life is all about. not trial and tribulation necessarily , but rather about learning to rely on Him during those trials and tribulations.
when we turn to Him in our hour of need, we have the opportunity to feel the power of His love and understand the beauty of His plan for us.
i hope things look up for you soon. let me know if you need anything.
p.s. my 2008 has been pretty lame too.
yeah, i remember being pretty stoked about the new year. we all know how it's shaping up for me.
i agree with jaime (oh wise one that she is) and i also think that life is about doing exactly what you're doing - finding happiness and peace despite the internal (and external) struggles.
i remember thinking as a teenager that once i was an adult i wouldn't have anything to worry about. laughable, right?
you've been there for me so much, listened and laughed and cried. i want to do the same for you. call me when you need to vent.
you're the best.
Diana-
I know what you mean...this has been a crazy year! Babies are definitely the upside to that! Doesn't it seem like you couldn't possibly say any more prayers- that you've filled your quota? It is nice to know though that He is listening regardless of how many prayers you say or have in your heart! Please let me know if you ever need an ear- love you D!
Diana, I had no idea, I hope things get better! Call me if you need to vent, at this point a listening ear is pretty much all I have to offer!
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