i asked bryce to take a picture of me so i could see how others see me these days. at my last appointment, my doctor said my uterus had reached my breastbone which meant that the only way to make room for growing baby is to now grow outward. that's what i get for being short. this pregnancy has just flown by and i'm starting to feel like my due date is coming way too fast. i still have so much i need to do to get ready for her.
however...
i am ready to stop having to pee every 10 minutes.
i am ready for the constant lower back pain to subside.
i am ready to enjoy food again.
i am ready to stop being so forgetful and flakey.
i am ready to be able to bend over without feeling like i'm going to throw up.
i am ready for the acid that is constantly sitting in my throat to go away.
i am not ready for my baby to leave the protection of my womb.
i am not ready to give up those special little kicks that i know i'll miss once they're gone.
and honestly, i am not ready to let go of having my alone time with just me and ava. it makes me sad to think that the time of her being my only child is approaching the end. i never thought that this would affect me so much, but it truly saddens me. i know baby #2 will only add joy to our family, but until she's here i'm hanging on to those fun times when it's just me and my bug.
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ooooh. i totally feel you. everytime we talk about having another my throat does a funny closing thing. it's like admitting that my baby isn't my baby anymore. rough stuff.
Oh my gosh, I couldn't agree with you more about not wanting to give up one on one time with your baby. I feel the same way about not wanting to have my special time with Evelynne. I am already worried about it and I am only 12 weeks! Do I have enough love to give to the new baby as I have for Evelynne already? I don't think it is possible to have that much love!
i can't believe it's only 6 more weeks. that's crazy.
I know how you feel. When I went in to labor with Charlotte I took Tucker to Fazoli's for one last lunch date. It was so sad to think we wouldn't have all the alone time we were used to, but now they enjoy each other so much that I would never change it.
you are so cute and tiny! We really need to get together next week and go to dinner, so we can actually talk without kiddos!
yeah.. this pregnancy seemed like it's only been goin on for like 3 months. fast times.
i don't know why everyone doesn't just have twins - then you don't have to worry about that kind of stuff. you will love having two, and i just know ava is going to be a great older sister!
I totally get what your feeling. I felt the same way before I had Hayden. I was so worried that I wouldn't be able to devote enough attention and love to each of them. I was worried that Gavin would feel left out because of the time and attention a new baby takes out of you. But, you find a way, your heart grows and you begin to enjoy them as they interact with each other and grow their relationship with each other! It's so much fun and I know that you will adjust beautifully.
ok look at how small you are! crazy how it seems to go so slow and then BOOM it is time and you are like wait I need more time! I dont miss being pg I love being able to bend like a normal person and see my toes but I REALLY miss my days in the hospital...ah.
i was worried about the same thing too. having another baby just made me appreciate jaxson so much more. i appreciate that he can go to the bathroom by himself, i appreciate that he sleeps through the night, keeps his food down, and doesn't scream at me all day.
and it really is the best when you see them interact and you can tell how much they adore each other.
Almost done! Your tummy is darling, it certainly makes me more baby hungry. I don't know why 'cause I know the second I have one I'll want it gone.
Good luck with the next 6 weeks! I'll be thinking about you!
Man, when I think back to when I was having Bennett, I felt the same way. I was so sad to give up my little buddy! It's that way with every baby though, because I am already feeling it with Bennett! You look cute! I can't believe you only have 6 weeks!
ok i don't know that you want to take advice from me after reading my blog but....don't go overboard on the one on one time now or when the baby comes she going to wonder why her best friend mommy is w/ that other kid! keep up lots of playdates b/c thats probably where she'll be when the baby comes! seriously I didn't learn this till # 3 kid. but maybe thats when i was tired enough to listen.
You look super cute!
Diana, you look so adorable...I can't believe how quickly your pregnancy has gone by for me...:)J/K.
Let me know if you(bryce)need help painting furniture. you know me, I love to paint.
I get nervous about the same thing Diana. I too, cannot believe you've only got six weeks left. Ava will be a fabulous older sister. She is such a doll and I loved watching her the other day. Don't ever hesitate to drop her by anytime!
6 weeks...wow! it seems like yesterday that you let the cat out of the bag! your belly really is adorable! after reading all the things you're ready for, i thought ooh ya, get that baby out. and then after reading all the things you're not ready for, i thought, oh no, the time is coming too fast. you're a great mom either way...whether you have one or two.
You are so beautiful!
You are going to be such a great mother of two! I can't believe it is going to be soon! Congratulations! Ava is still so adorable as always. You look great too Diana. I miss you.
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